I am on a brief hiatus from blogging, but wanted to post for this month's Insecure Writer's Group. There's a whole bunch of us and if you want to learn more, head on over to Alex J. Cavanaugh's blog to learn more.
So I have a question for you today... something I've been pondering for awhile now....
Do you think the internet helps you feel more secure as a writer? Or is it the opposite? I know the advice and workshops and all are an enormous benefit where learning the craft comes in. But I'm not talking craft. I'm talking about being surrounded by success stories that could be you, and perhaps, one day will be you, if you should be so lucky.
How do those make you feel? Maybe so-and-so just got an agent, or so-and-so just got a three book deal, or so-and-so made it to the NY Times Bestseller list. I don't mean comparing yourself with these success stories, because we all know we can't do that. Every path is different. And I'm sure when we do hear these success stories, we're genuinely happy for the writer. I know am, because I know how hard they worked.
But honestly speaking, does being surrounded by it make you feel more secure--that your day is coming if you keep plugging along? Or does it make you feel like you're in a rat race and you better hurry to get your slice of pie?
I feel both ways sometimes. Sometimes I want to turn the internet off for a few weeks and just do what I love and write stories. Sometimes I don't wanna know what so-and-so author is up to, or what the most popular book is right now, or who got what agent. I don't say this with bitterness. I just say it because, lately, the internet has made me feel less secure as a writer. Now, I know there's only a small truth to that. The internet can't make me feel anything I don't already, right?
That's why I'm taking a brief blogging break and trying to find that magic that exists when it's just me and the keyboard and my imagination. I want to be secure in that. I just want to write.
I hope I don't come off the wrong way here in my honesty. I don't mean hard feelings toward anyone nor their success. I love success stories. I just don't wanna feel like I'm in a race for it. It's not a race at all. And there are so many wonderful things about the internet, like this group, and all the amazing bloggy friends I've made.
So what say you, fellow writers and friends? Do you ever feel this way too? I'm not looking for advice, I get it. I'm just wondering if anyone else feels this or if it's just my own insecurity? Fess up... let's hear it!