So the first Wednesday of the month, as you know, is Insecure Writers Support Group day. You can get to HDQ by clicking on the picture below and check out all the entries. But don't leave yet! Read on for what I mean with Losing Faith ...
Remember the Garbage Pail Kids? They were pretty big when I was a kid. My brothers and I had an entire collection of cards, that unfortunately were lost over the years and I think some are actually worth money now. But one card managed to stick around and I have it on my desk:
Pretty funny stuff, right. Those cards were always a riot. But ironic to me that this one stuck around, since this is what tends to happen to me after I write a story and start the subbing process. I begin to lose faith in the project. And that's exactly what I don't want to happen with the one I'm working on right now. All that subjectivity leaves me riddled with doubt.
If you remember a few weeks ago I mentioned I was experiencing First Draft Euphoria--feeling all giddy and psyched, but knowing as well that once I had some critiques and beta reads there'd be stuff to fix.
Yep, that Euphoria is pretty much fizzled now. lol
Now I enter Revision Purgatory--the face-melter of story crafting. BIG changes need to be made and I feel like a nervous first time surgeon with a scalpel jittering in my hands, sweat beading at my temples. What if I mess up????
But everything can be fixed, right? And revisions are all part of the process. Editing is my favorite part of the process, but big revisions give me heart palpitations. Still, after much marinating of thoughts and jotting of mental notes, I'm ready to bite the bullet and get in there.
Nip and tuck. Snip. Snip. Snip. Hack. Hack. hack.
But here's the part that makes me insecure--every editor who may request pages, will have a different opinion that will leave me questioning my project, and eventually cause me to lose faith in it. So I'm wondering if I should even bother. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm all for making improvements and doing the work it takes to make it the best it can be, but that passion I feel about my story right now is worth more to me than anything a pro editor can offer me. I don't want to lose faith. Which makes all the author options out there right now a beautiful thing.
We can go right to the reader and let them be the ones to steal our passion. LOL
Anyway, my Losing Faith card is a personal reminder that it doesn't have to be that way, and it makes me smile.
So look who I met the other day:
Yep, that's Neil Gaiman signing my book in Miami. He spoke to a group of us and then I waited in a two hour line for him to personalize my book. To give you the mental image, I felt like Oliver Twist waiting in line for more porridge (or whatever it was they served at the orphanage) only instead of dejected children, we were all jacked up on caffeine and giddy to meet the man himself. And funny story, I told my hubby that it'll be our luck to finally get up there and then Neil will decide to take a break.
Well you gotta give the guy credit, he sat there for hours signing books and it's gotta make your hand tired, but just as I predicted, I was next in line and he took a pee break. LOL. So that added another 15 minutes to my wait time, but his staff was super cool and because he made us wait, Neil let us snap a picture with him--which was originally against the rules.
I not only got a book for myself, but I got an autographed book to giveaway to one of my lovely blog readers later on down the line. So keep a lookout for that.
Okay, I'm sorry this is such a long post, but since the summer has been kicking my butt, it'll be up for awhile. I can't wait for school to start again so I can get my life back. lol
How about you? Do you ever find yourself losing faith?