I'm also still smack dab in the middle of Revision Purgatory, and haven't lost faith! Thanks for all your supportive comments last week. I'm moving along swimmingly. *splish splash*
Today I'm participating in the "Always Do the Thing that Scares You" Blogfest for Mila Ferrero and her new book, Spiral.
Click on the picture to get to Mila's blog and find the rest of the entries (along with a contest.)
I liked the sound of this fest, because I think fear assaults all of us in different ways, but standing in the face of it can make you feel more alive than you ever have. I'm talkin' full body buzz. I've never been one to be scared of heights or roller coasters or snakes. I was pretty much a daredevil adrenaline junkie my entire life. (seeing those same traits in my daughter already and it's a bit scary ...lol)
But there is one thing that's always made me FREAK ... Dun Dun Dun ....
Interviews and formal presentations.
Go figure. But that's why I'm a writer. I've always loathed selling myself verbally, which I'll have to overcome if I'm to sell my books, I know that. But that's a little different. I can sell my art. I'm passionate about that. But corporate America ??? Oh boy.
Before my daughter was born--almost seven years ago--I was climbing that corporate ladder. I trained classes all the time, sometimes in other parts of the world, and was looking to keep moving up with the company. But once I found myself a mother of two small children and decided to work from home, I changed. And I decided to pursue writing, which is something I've always wanted to do.
Well, a couple months ago, an opportunity came up to get back into that old corporate position, but I had to present to a room full of corporate managers I'd never met before.
I convinced myself I could do it. I wanted to try because I needed a change. But boy was I petrified.
When I got to the hotel and saw that small room with a panel of superiors, all I could think was American Idol. This is like auditioning for American Idol. Only I wasn't showcasing my art--I was supposed to convince them I was enthusiastic about the company and be poised and articulate.
I was ready to vomit. No joke. My entire body was a jumble of nerves. I hadn't done this in so long, and even though I had plenty of classroom experience, I wasn't going into a classroom--I was going in to be judged.
I considered leaving. I mean, I REALLY considered bolting because I didn't know how I'd get a hold of my nerves. But the Big Guys and Gals had already seen me, and I worried how that would look too. Of course, the candidate who presented before me was one of those people who always makes everyone laugh and is super witty. So that wasn't helping. Plus she was in there forever and I could hear the judges laughing and having a great time behind the closed door.
Talk about stress. Oy.
I knew I couldn't compete with what they'd already seen. I didn't have it in me. I'm a writer now--used to spending hours alone on my laptop. But I stayed, faced my fear, and presented my material the best I could. I was so proud of myself for getting through it, I almost didn't even care if I got the position. And that felt great.
I did not get the position, and the reason, was for my lack of enthusiasm. No big deal. It truly was a blessing in disguise since the position would've required lots of travel away from my family. But the important thing was, I did what I set out to do, and although I'd never put myself through that again, it does give me comfort to know I can and would only get better over time.
Mila's book, Spiral, is a New Adult romance about facing fear. Click on the picture below to get to her blog and rafflecopter with a $50 gift card, and learn more about her book:
Congrats to Mila! And also revealing her cover today, is S.K. Anthony
"Strength is one thing, an unlimited source of power is quite another."
Learn more about this New Adult story on GoodReads and Facebook. And find S.K. on her blog and wish her congratulations!
Today's also the second Wednesday of the month, which means it's all about Indie Life!
And the two authors I featured above just happen to be Indie Authors. Kudos to them and their efforts. I love when writers take the reins and make their dreams come true on their own. Mila has a great post on her blog today about the fears of Indie Life, and I recently read a fantastic article on 10 self-pub tips if you are considering the Indie Life. Find that right here. And to get to Indie Life HDQ click on the picture above.
Also, if you write for tweens or have a tween (that age before actual teen-dom) you may want to check out this brand new blog called Emblazon. They're all about celebrating tween literature, whether children, adults, or new writers. They go live today so check them out!
Hey, thanks so much for stopping by and putting up with my lengthy post. Was there a time when you faced your fear? How are you with interviews? Got any new releases to share? Tell me everything because I love reading your comments!!